Josh Plovanic's Writings and Thoughts

Fear is the great enslaver It chains you in your own mind, to where you don't even need to be put in a cage or actually chained. It's a mental bondage. A spiritual one even. One that can be difficult to break. Fear can cripple entire nations and break the will of even the strongest people if allowed to do so. Fear is the mind conquerer. Imagine a world, even a universe, with no more fear. No more terror. A reality where these things hold no power over consciousness. A realm where fear is dead. If fear is dead, liberty can take root and truly flourish.  Fear is the killer of freedom. I long to be free of fear. Free of terror. Where I no longer have things be afraid of, and Love, Peace, and Liberty are all I know. One day, I'm going to be in the presence of Jesus, and all my fear will be cast out of me. One day, fear will be dead.

   I write about infinity a lot. I know, it can get quite redundant, but I find it to be therapeutic. For me, its about security. I feel that if I worship an infinite God, one whose creative capacity enables Him to create a system that mirrors His own infinity, I find safety in the thought of my God being an infinite Creator. After all, you can't destroy something infinite, and if He has your back, you can never truly lose.        It's just taking the biggest concept in mathematics and applying it to the power of a deity, giving me an idea of God that is truly limitless and truly all-powerful to an unfathomable degree to humans.  It gives me much hope to believe in something this big, and much spiritual security.        This faith I have strengthens my resolve to face my life every day, knowing that a God of this magnitude walks with me and dwells in my mind.  Even though my heart's desire is to simply be in His presence to the...

I will travel with you, love. Through infinity's sky. above the highest realms through the most beautiful worlds into the most majestic of mountains. on streets of gold and towers of ivory On heaven's wings I will lift you I will fly with you through the stars Through the Nebulae. We will face our enemies together  and triumph over them You and I, love We will conquer darkness We will annihilate the agents  of the blackest voids We will conquer the most blinding deceptions Hate will die at the edge of our swords Death will die at the shout of our voices Sin will burn to cinder Fear will fall forever The glorious adventure will see no end You and I, love Will exist forever In realms of abstract Realms of physical Realms of the infinite Life eternal is our prize Eternity's glory is in store for you, love You will dwell in My presence for all time Exploring my infinite system My endless adventures My worlds upon worlds My cultures upon cultures My love, I will walk with you ta...

When I have a slow moment, I usually sit down and write a poem or some deep philosophy post if I'm feeling particularly inspired. Tonight, I want to be a little more down to earth in my writings and maybe a little more relatable.  This post is about falling in love. I have never been in love with someone. Truly in love. I never got to spend hours talking on my phone to a cute girl or texting back and forth funny jokes or pictures. I never have been on a truly romantic date out at a restaurant or a coffee shop. No long walks in parks or in the woods with a girlfriend or wife or partner like a lot of guys got. I never really got the typical relationship path. The typical or "normal" is honestly not something on my resume, and I'm ok with that. I was just born a little different. Wired a little different. My life has been anything but normal, and it made me different. Special in some ways. Cursed in others. I've always wanted a better half. A special person I could d...

   I've been through a lot of stuff in my life. A lot of tragedies and a lot of mistakes. Some of it was pretty bad, and some of it was mind breaking. Much of it was just different. Unusual and even unique. There are plenty of people who have been through their own hell. My hell was just different. Not necessarily worse or better. Different is a good word for it.  This different, atypical experience had a profound effect on my thinking. My mind has been constructed in a unique way and has an alternative way of looking at things primarily because of the adversity I faced. My difficulties forced me to reckon with the truths and brutality of this world. They deprived me of a lot of opportunities and crushed any sense of normalcy.         This forced me to search for meaning and purpose in a life where I couldn't reach my dreams and aspirations because of the consequences of my own decisions as well as the consequences of the cruelty of this place.  I...

       I wake up. My eyes open wide. I see nothing but beauty. Nothing but glory. I'm in a warm bed. I'm surrounded by an air of love. The smell of hope's victory pervades the room. The walls white with a tint of blue. My blankets are soft. My room is clean. I'm in God's palace. I'm in His presence. He is all around me now. I am never without Him. I now dwell in a Kingdom where truth is absolute, where deception no longer has any power. Where it no longer exists. Sin is dead too. It's poison burned out of all of us. Here, even death is dead.      I've woken up from a bad dream and into perfection. A flawless Kingdom ruled by a flawless God. Never again having to face the disappointments and cruelties of earth and its fallen state of darkness. The delusions and ignorance of that world are of no consequence here. Insanity isn't real. That concept is dead here too. It has no power over me anymore. Hate has been eradicated. No longer hunting me and strik...

"A house divided against itself cannot stand."    -Abraham Lincoln  If you want to collapse any system, get it to implode. Get it to collapse itself. Pit the parts of the system against each other and create discord and counterproductivity within the system and turn the gears on themselves. Division collapses even the most well-designed and well intentioned system, no matter how many precautions you take against instability.  In America's system, our current arrangement of social, economic, racial, and cultural relationships is unsustainable to say the least. It's only a matter of time before far greater instability and loss of life than we have already seen strikes our system. In a system based on a simple left-right, liberal-conservative dichotomy, achieving stability requires a few things. It requires willingness to sit down at the table and discuss the issues civilly and with genuine care and concern. It requires a level of humility in leadership where the good o...