Josh Plovanic's Writings and Thoughts

       Something I am slowly coming to terms with in my life is the fact that I wouldn't have the faith I have, the creativity I have, the strength I have, and the mind I have had I had a cookie cutter life. A more mainstream, baseline life would have deprived me of the necessary adversity and suffering that was needed to seed such a deep faith in the Lord.       Nor would my stimulus for creativity be there if I had the whole 10 year plan "marriage, kids, and suburb house" lifestyle. In my deprivation of normalcy, my faith in Christ was deeply seeded down into the foundations of my very being. I would have never known how much I needed Jesus if I was always getting invited to the cool kids parties and allowed to join the clubs and groups I wanted to join.       I would have been oblivious to my bondage instead of painfully aware of it, and that painful awareness drove me right into the arms of my Infinite God.      A...

"Do I really look like a guy with a plan? You know what I am? I'm a dog chasing cars. I wouldn't know what to do with one if I caught it! You know, I just... *do* things....they're schemers. Schemers trying to control their little worlds. I try to show the schemers how pathetic their attempts to control things really are." -the Joker from the Dark Knight        The biggest problem with plans is they never account for all the variables. Experiments fall under the same pitfall. It's because the more complex a system is the more variables it has, the harder it is to control, and the harder it is to anticipate or predict outcomes. The more time that will elapse also greatly increases the uncertainty and unpredictability.            Plans are an excellent coping mechanism for people afraid of not having control of their lives or fear losing said control, but as most of us are aware by now, plans can be destroyed in a moment and forced to be c...

    I have a lot of big thoughts. Complex thinking kind of comes naturally for me, and I have a way of putting my thoughts into words that is definitely in its own ballpark. Sometimes I have a hard time sorting through my own mind, which is one of the reasons I write so much.        I find my ability to cope with things has gotten easier over the years, and my faith in God has only gotten stronger. I meditate a lot on God's complexity, on His infinity, and the vastness of His mind and His creation because such meditation is not only mind expanding in a lot of ways, but it also gives me a kind of "hope of hopes."  The idea that existence was created by an unfathomably infinite, and unfathomably powerful being doesn't intimidate me like it does some people. Such thoughts are of a substantial level of comfort.       This concept that God created an existence just as infinite as He is, with countless forms, countless ideas, countless worlds,...

Politics is the art of compromise. I've heard this quote in my classes and over the course of my years of studying and paying attention to American politics.  I want to look at what compromise is for discussion's sake. Compromise is the outcome of decisions in the game of political discourse which creates an equilibrium between the competing ideological factions. An equilibrium occurs when both sides of a political divide and disagreement are sufficiently satisfied with the approach and settlement of an issue to which few to no objections are raised about the issue that can stall or halt a bill or legislation from passing through the political body Perfect equilibriums in politics are rarely, if ever, achieved. But an equilibrium/compromise can be achieved on an individual level enough to garner a majority to pass the legislation regardless of opposition by compromising with individual actors within the system. Without compromise, progress in legislation and lawmaking is diffic...

 Oh weary son Your heart's always on edge Your mind never rests You are struck by anger far too much You fear needlessly for so many minutes of your days Come Rest behind my shield Rest secured by my sword Rest under the light of my truth My big guy My shield can stop any weapon formed against you The poisons and hate shall not strike you My sword can cut into the very souls of your enemies No wicked or depraved being can withstand the might of this blade The enemy's hate and the hatred of men cannot harm you under My shield. Lies are cut to pieces by My sword and My word Be at ease under My protection Have peace and hope in your mind and heart with the knowledge of my infinite liberty and my eternal security. Just know, that the blindness of hate and prejudice can't withstand the light of truth Just know, that the sickness of sin cannot withstand the grace of God Just know, that the blackness of evil cannot usurp the glory of an infinite God Rest your thoughts on My love R...

 "The Palace of the Infinite God" If I were to design God's palace, and He were to give me free reign on creativity and architecture, I would design a palace of immense splendor. This palace would sit at the center of the Capitol City of All creation, and all the buildings, parks, fields, monuments, and homes of this city would perfectly encircle this palace.  To start, the palace would be seven-sided, structured like a heptagon. The sides would have a gorgeous blue, silver, and white marble roof supported by blue, silver, and white marble Greek-style columns. The column-supported roof would be exactly 111 meters high, and the entire structure would be 7.777 kilometers in diameter.  The main part of the palace would be a dome structure that encompasses an inner circumference of the structure and rises 222 meters above the rest of the structure, bringing the total height of the palace to 333 meters. This dome is made of gold-laced white marble, and contains the majority of...

  "Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world."    -Albert Einstein      From my perspective, imagination doesn't just encircle the world, it encircles all of existence. It is in the imagination that concepts like an infinite existence or infinite complexity gain their plausibility and accessibility.     Without imagination, these massive ideas and big picture constructs are inaccessible and unentertainable. In the abstract creative processes involved in imagining complex constructs and creative ideas, we see the fullest potential of humanity made manifest. It is in this process that humanity can truly achieve a higher liberty and a higher purpose.        I believe the imagination is a lot more real than society or our culture would give it credit for. If there is a form or idea, or a set of meaning assigned to a mental construct, it exists somewhere. If something di...

  There is a realm of existence that is encompassed entirely by love. An infinite love. In this realm. Every form, every idea, every place, everything is saturated by a love of immeasurable quantity...and immeasurable quality. The intensity of this love can reach an infinite degree, and the forms this love can take are just as innumerable.      There is no hate here. No perversion or corruption in this system. There is no fear. Fear is rendered impotent. There is no evil here. Evil is an alien thing. In this realm, you know nothing but love. Infinite love, and everything that infinite love encompasses. The very air you breathe here gets its substance from love.         The degree of love you feel within yourself can grow exponentially in intensity to infinity. In this realm, you can stay as long as you like, and be immersed in the love of the Creator. This realm is reserved for that love, and you can go into it whenever you want to.     ...

  I have loved you since before you were born Since before you grew in your mother's womb You have been in my mind, my infinite mind, forever I have loved you since I thought of you My big guy I love you so much I will deliver you from the evil of your world I will shut the mouths of the wolves and lions I will shield you from hate I will redeem you from sin My dearest child I have loved you since beginningless time You will always be my son You will always be my big guy No matter what mistakes you've made What sins you have committed My big guy I will make your mistakes no more I will wash your sins clean like dust from my hands I have loved you since I created you I have loved you since I put your dreams in you I have loved you even in your failures Even in your sin I have loved you even when the Devil struck you Even when he tried to steal your dreams I have loved you I still love you And I will always love you Even if this dying world strikes at you My big guy I will avenge...

  My faith is very important to me. It gets me through many struggles and allows me to face a life that I am a little disappointed by and have some reluctance about entering further into my future, but my faith in an infinite God gives me the strength to continue to face every day and face my difficulties and fear head on. As I developed my understanding and relationship with my Infinite God, I developed a sort of "creed" that say to myself when I'm scared or angry. It's a simple question and answer dialogue, but it sums up much of my faith and my trust. This is my creed: What do you believe?: In an infinite God. What do you believe about this infinite God?: I believe He has a creative capacity that extends beyond the imaginations of humanity by an infinite number. What do believe this Infinite God did with His infinite creative capacity?: I believe He created an existence that is truly infinite to mirror His own infinity, both as the greatest demonstration of His pow...

  What makes a human being valuable? Probably one of the most important questions a person can ask.  Is it their skills? Their looks? Their smarts? To some degree it is all of the above. Many things give human life value.  People can be valued for what they have, and valued for what their name is, and valued for what they're good at. These are quantifiably valuable aspects of the human condition. What about intrinsic value? Intrinsic value in regards to people is the value inherent in us all just for being human. A value unquantifiable. A value you can't put a price on. For me, the intrinsic value of human beings and its inherent nature that gives each of us an almost priceless worth is our consciousness. Our sentience. Our ability to feel, think, love, experience, grow, learn, and hope. These are unquantifiable and unpriceable traits that all advanced conscious beings, not just humans, share and experience.       A human being is a natural receiver of info...

  Grace and mercy are two of the most beautiful abstract ideas God has ever developed. Humanity wouldn't have freedom without grace and mercy and we wouldn't have the blessings that we do or the beauty, wonder, purpose, and value in our lives without God's grace.       The beauty of God's grace, aside from what it does for us, is God's total sovereignty over the concept. He can shed it whenever He wants to whereever He wants to on whoever or whatever He wants to and however He wants to. He has total mastery of the power of grace. The fact that He has such an authority should always remind the faithful of the importance of gratitude. Just as He can give grace, he can also take it. It is an act of grace that we exist at all anywhere, to be honest.       Grace is as timeless and eternal as anything else that is divine. It will never stop existing. Grace is the acting force of how God liberates us from the curse of sin and death. We are saved by grace...

My Sapphire! I'm going to refine you into a precious gem. A precious, beautiful royal blue sapphire, like the Yogos from where you grew up. I'm going to make you into something beautiful. Something pure. Something holy. Something unique. You will be free of any corruption, perversion, or wickedness that would tarnish your luster. Or Dim your shimmer Or Dampen your shine You are going to be one of a kind Sought after by many, but only truly belonging to Me. My gem My prince My precious, beautiful man. You are going to be my blue Sapphire You are going to be holy Sacred Pure And cleansed of all this vile sin that has poisoned your mind and dimmed your light You are going to be a sapphire of a man when I'm done with you. You are going to be exactly how I want you to be. With no darkness or sin or blight to dim your sapphire light. 

      He lives in me like a fire in my mind. He walks with me and He helps me fight my fears. He tells me how much He loves me. He is my champion and my rescuer. He is my King and my God. He is the God of Limitless love, boundless creativity, infinite liberty, and indestructible hope. He will deliver me from the wolves and the oppression of my enemies. He is the Architect of an infinite system, and He loves me as one of His own.        As I continue to pursue a relationship with Jesus, I try to use my imagination to exalt Him and put Him as high as my mind can put Him. Higher than any other god or angel or divine being. I try to make Him out to be uncomprehendably big and unfathomably powerful. I use my mind to exalt Him by thinking about Him in terms of the infinite and limitless.          How big is Jesus to me? Well, insurmountably big. I often make the analogy to put into perspective how big the Christ is to me by stat...