My Faith and My Fear

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     "The Lord is my light and my salvation. Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life, of whom shall I be afraid?" 

    -Psalm 27:1


     Fear has been a blight on my life since as far as I can remember. I have made some terrible mistakes because of fear. I have derailed my life out of terror and fear of things both real and unreal.  I have lost many dreams and shattered many ambitions because of my inability to master my fear.


    Unfortunately, fear is one of those things that entered into this world when this world became the fallen place that it is. Fear is a fact of our world. I live in fear of the damage my mind can do to me when I lose control of my thoughts and lose control of my behavior. 


I'm afraid of insanity and the times where I have been without control of mind. I fear the "normal" things, like losing loved ones or losing my job or losing my house. I fear being judged by peers and co-workers. It's actually quite unfortunate, but I worked so hard and waited for so long to get my drivers license, but I am terrified of driving, and so I don't even do it that much. 


   Luckily my fears in regards to many of these things aren't overpowering and crippling, but they are still there nonetheless. I just cope with them better than I used to. 


        Unfortunately, the damage fear has done in my life has already run its course and I am still living the consequences of much of my missteps in regards to my fear. However, I have been in a state of healing for a couple years now, and I have recovered immensely from the disasters of my past. 


      The thing that gets me through my fears and my grief and helps me soldier on though the darkness of this world is my faith.  


     Jesus died so that fear and death would no longer hold sway over me. I haven't completely mastered that or let that be the truth in my life because I'm human. I am trying, though.


     My faith in the power and supremacy of God and the massive Kingdom I will inherit because of His grace helps me cope with and overcome my fears. I can only overcome the great terrors and fears of this reality with the protective power of God's perfect love. 


      Perfect love casts out all fear. I have found this to be true in life. The moments where I have felt love the strongest, I never felt fear at the same time.


         I am starting to come to a realization that most of my fears are unfounded and unnecessary. With God, fear shouldn't be a factor in my life. The only thing I should fear is God, because in the end only He can destroy me completely and utterly. If you love him, though, there honestly is no reason to live in fear of Him in that way.


      Fear is of the devil. He poisons minds all the time with fear. He breaks spirits and destroys dreams with fear. I have felt that sting many times, but I never lost hope. I never lost my faith. I kept fighting through my fears and insecurities. 


     I admire bravery above all virtues and traits of humans.


I've always tried to be brave. I've always wanted to be courageous.


I may never be completely free of fear, but I will face my fears and be resilient in the face of the destruction fear can bring in my life and has already brought.


    Like the old John Wayne saying. "bravery is being scared to death, but saddling up anyways."


I try to saddle up as much as I can.

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